New Motive

So I'm back at square one
Fought a good battle but he won
So fuck it now-
I'm gunna smoke blunts and stack paper
Save that cuffin shit for ---> Later.

I'm not gunna point fingers at who to blame 
Just take this ' L ' and deal wit the shame
Can't take the shame cuz I got so much fame they prolly look at this nigga like He the Lame!



     So back to the drugs . . .
Extra heavy this time
The spliffs , 
ex, 
salvi,
shrooms 
oh MY!
Everything to numb what pain i once felt , once dealt 
But no longer feel. 
Slowly, its becoming easier- this way to heal.

Not that ill stop loving 
but I'm gunna be extra prepared next time around 
            .... for all possible outcomes.
And when it gets too tuff ,




 find sum bud, takeoff &


 run. 
1/20/11

I'm a listener…



not that yoga , " listen to the ocean " type  listener
-but I listen to peoples stories. I take pride and respect
 in the tales other can’t seem to forget.
I take metal notes of their facial expressions. The raise of their brows,
the lick of their lips the way their eyes dagger,
how their voice dips..


I listen to everyone.
 Never choosing one story before another. Every tale is an opportunity to fill my head with a cup of knowledge.          Educated myself about something I didn’t know before. Thus, this is a gift to me so I agree and disagree when needed ,  to ensure my attention is present.

I think a lot of people could learn if they actually sat down and heard


The adventures others can donate. .


I listen
 and I observe. Nothing is more gratifying than to hear a tale from word of mouth ;  .. As the slaves once did making their journey from the south.


It’s amazing what values could be taught if people open up and listen to what their ears caught!
...Listen to the emotions, the way their voice cracks as they reopen a painful scar.


I find true happiness in listening to others, don’t care what it is. From a bum to a businessman .. no story is greater than
another mans.
so i listen to them all'
we've all dealt with shit , and its my ears that come to witness
this
prodigy of story telling 
 truly a blessing.

To me, it’s a privilege, yet another chance to learn something new. Take an opportunity to put myself amongst whats becoming so few.

reTro (freewrite)

The say I'm crazy: guess the shit I do ..

The bud or drinks that put me in that mood . . .

the chemical romance that took my higher than the sky

Loose fit jeans

beaded pearl necklace

Leggings with almost every color of the rainbow

-The rainbow

The colors that kinda don't match

But they sorta do.

Like I sorta match but I don't.

Boyfriend jeans loose.

No need to show my best Asset. Look couple feet higher . Then turn me around. Ull see my fedora. That I haven't worn out seriously

but today ima show how unserious I am .

And that I'm slightly blazed cuz I took a few pulls of some exotics before I left the house ; just to make sure my sanity doesn't leave this house....

And the words juss flow.

And these gray riding boots that protect my feet not only from the cold

but the broken, shattered pieces of my past. Dig it? i can protect my feet like i protect my heart

im too much about good times to stress anyone from the start. 

Ahhh mann,

life is great when u take some time to embrace it, discover its beauty and true innocence. Just Rock the FCUK out sumtimes and embrace the stares. Don't be afraid!!

A stare is merely a follower, believes in the cause , an admirer-

that obviously sees u in some fashionista uppers rank of royalty.

The shades. Just so the sun won't damage what I look at when I also admirer because truth be told, I am too an admirer.

Truth also be told I wannnna smoke tho...

That's besides the point. I'm at school now, so we must cease this put out

of my symbolic expression of MY style. Tuh Later.

MiseryBusiness